nervous break down...

There's really no point to this post, don't read it.

After weeks of working everyday or having a few days off in between, I finally managed a mini four-day vacation which I've spent drinking and crying about Cas. Drinking used to make it easier, but it's been so long and the more time that passes, the harder it is to believe s.7 will make anything better. In fact, it'll probably make things worse and I just can't handle it anymore.

I watched a few videos from NJCon this morning but it's done nothing to ease my worries, plus I don't really wanna know any spoilers...if it's gonna be bad (which it likely will) I don't wanna know at all so the more I put it off, the better.

I'm too out of it to make sense, but those are the few sentences I could actually put together...